what he said
3:16 p.m. | Thursday, Apr. 27, 2006

sometimes all it takes are a few kind words.

these words from a great friend echo through my mind these days. keeping me tough and sane. or at least acting like i am.

today is one of those days where i'm fine all day long and then snap! just like that, i wanna bawl.

what he wrote:

i wish you could sit here and see you from my point of view. I look at you as a strong woman who has had nothing but shit dumped on her for such a long time that I sit here and wonder how she can be so strong to keep going. I admire your fight for life. and sometimes, even though I know that you bring it on yourself sometimes... I wish that I could be there to help ease the pain. and I wish all the time that you could stay happy and hope that you can find someone to make your day. I like how you find the little things in life to find the good in. the things that other people take for granted. like the weather... and the way the sun feels on your skin, and the way the outdoors feels... and you always look for a good book to read...and you look to everything as a learning tool. you always give everyone the first compliment, and you're easy to talk to... and you always look for the good in people first... give them the benefit of the doubt, even though you always get the shitty end of things. the music you listen to, the poetry you write, the feelings you have..are all searching for the good in things... yet... they all end so sadly. its nice to read your journal and hear you say sometimes that this is mindy happy :) and I hope that I could only be half the person you are... you're a true fighter.

i hear about you all the time
wondering...
do they really love me...
or are they just using me...
and thats a hard thing to do
it takes a strong soul to stand up to that time and time again
and you listen to your heart.
and you do what you need to do.
its probably the only healthy thing you do...
no one can make you happy but yourself.
so just keep doing what your doing.
and think for the best
and someday...
somewhere...
someone will find ya
and take you away from all of this.

i love my friends. thx, john. (k)

cya in the frog!!!